evidence i’ve been slipping

i’ll let it pass through me, i won’t let it linger

girls when they spend one night alone by their own volition

but yknow

she doesn’t like it very much

i feel clean, slept on fresh sheets after a shower

i’m kind of lonely though

i don’t want to be desired i just want to be held

okay mental reset

gimme 5k and 8 months, that should be just enough to pick a cloud provider

a few more rounds of funding and i might make some blog posts too

arf

webs op in the captcha meta

i did more work instead (lol)

they were wrong on the internet man what do u want from me

anyway i think i might chill out now, still gonna figure out what tho

i have headache

the greater the distance the more i admire how insightful i was by the end of college, like i was right about all the the things to be skeptical about and resistant to, at least in terms of the anticipated affects.

i would say "the main thing i was under-prepared/experienced for was how much i could tolerate before giving in" but no, that was anticipated too and was regarded as one of the more depressing realities.

anyway, i specifically mean this with reference to something rather trivial and kind of cute. i used to basically regard it as a point of pride (or rather, that the alternative would be more regrettable) that i was untalented at my job for a variety of reasons.

and now that i have genuinely improved, i get these annoying urges and i see myself becoming more work-obsessed/interested/invested, like kasey. like "oh this guy said something wrong in an email let me correct him and provide a bunch of evidence" or go out of my way to correct things

and like it actually is much more rewarding and enjoyable on a subjective level but taking a step back the dynamics are pretty uncomfy, but i'm not really disquieted about it. i kinda wanna scrap this thread for this reason cuz like, idc, whatever

to be more specific ig, im doing work after hours on a friday and doing things beyond my required minimum bc im interested in the problem, which ig kinda happens when you have a modicum of curiosity and are actually somewhat familiar with the domain

a surprising amount of motivation can be found from "wow, you're so dumb man. it works like this." i get why kaseys like that

for when you want to repost something but its against your religion

i kinda hate what passes as lefty or “socialist” because they try to talk policy and are just objectively worse than the policy wonk liberals

i would have socially transitioned by now if kasey didn’t give me a black woman’s name

just like me fr

this account is a safe space for me to acknowledge my previous life as a dgger

customer: “waaa waaa show me return on investment” project manager: *throws me under the bus while simultaneously lying* willow (god): i did a demo last week for the exact functionality you said doesn’t exist (to the people CC’d??), here is the email receipts and toolkit i already created

since i divorced from the willow name it is now appropriate to call my worksona that you’ll notice my main display name was updated accordingly the other day

it was an amicable break up tho, shared custody and all

did you know there is a unique transaction status for unmatched $0 payments

and they don’t show in the visits tab!

i just think this is a neat slice

you’ve got this genuinely, no sweat for someone like u

is there a girl version of “a fella like me”

35 y/o who age regresses to 31

i haven’t figured out the punchline yet but it’s in there somewhere

lol as expected that was kind of a disaster but in a hilarious way

i keep saying unintentionally offensive things and we’re both introverts and don’t wanna be here

the dynamic of early 20s and mid 30s trying to be peers

and she kinda has to protect her pride and i don’t have enough tact to respect it properly

i gave her directions, i defi met her at some party thing right? it wasn’t with muen tho

ohhhh we went drinking together in tennessee during go-live