btw this is not representative of the time i spent in each, down was pre-watch, up was majority of the runtime, down was very end, although i had some unease in the middle
Bad enough! The same old story! When one has finished
building ones' house, one suddenly realizes that in the process one has learned something that one really needed to know in the worst way - before one began. The eternal distasteful "too late". The melancholy of everything finished!
there are a lot more "it depends" conditions but in general i think people should do them more often, or at least not shy away from them when its clearly a thorn. backwards compatibility is death. your new choices probably suck tho so maybe stay put
not to be alarmist but i think designers underestimate the intimate influence they have on people, and the unfortunately the more they estimate their influence, the worse choices they make
lev dm'd me talking about how theyre reading capital (yea, that capital) for the first time which already insane for someone in a crit th*ory group but its even more crazy: theyre LEADING a grad seminar discussion on it??
there was so much anxiety in academia of not knowing enough, not doing your homework, and it was all bullshit. no real thoughts were had, no connections ever. it was all just vague gestures at caricatures, and you were graded by professors and TAs on the same
its not just "oh teehee how silly whatever tsk tsk" and its not just about the psychological damage thats inflicted, its about the fucking death of higher thinking, about wasting yours and everyone elses time at every turn
i tried for years to fit in and observe what other people were doing because surely there was something to it, everyone was doing it for some underlying actually valuable reason but no, its all a mirage and a waste and you should just do the reading instead
the ONLY thing that matters about an undergrad course, a grad seminar, a conference, etc. is the syllabus, the readings. in the last case where people are writing their own work, its likely forgettable and better left ignored
in some ways i’m sorry i’m not someone juliet can talk to right now, but that doesn’t mean im motivated to become someone like that again for the time being