The ppl in the offices around me probably hate me - I have lil anxiety spasms that result in blurting out obscenities like all the time. How am I supposed to explain that I don’t have Tourette’s I’m just a smol lil guy?

Customer wants to call using Google Meet instead of Zoom or Teams so I’m just a just a cute lil beanie pfp surrounded by professional headshots

I’m so gorgeous and cute ~~~

crying softly in my office haha

I wish I had pretty wrists

i fear my most eventful days are behind me

incredibly fitting result, but unlikely the author had eating disorders in mind during creation lol uquiz.com/quiz/tjZ8p6/...

no one cares you're not insightful you're not interesting you're worthless. have an original thought you pathetic coward. you're nothing, you're limited, shut the fuck up. kill yourself. even your self hate is trite and nauseatingly recycled. jk guys haha

Park is rly good House char

Simmering discomfort, unease. Sharp pain, searing. Dull lethargy, fatigue.

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Has my anxiety gotten better or have I just grown more accustomed to it

Lol it’s sad when I don’t even realize I’m actually having an anxiety attack until someone tries to comfort me

i want to vomit, i should try bulimia for a bit

i love overwatch sometimes

in some ways i wish i had more vocabulary and theoretical background to describe the emotions i feel, but i'm also scared of cultivating that knowledge. if i do have new metaphors available to me, i'm scared that will funnel the experiences i have into a narrow set of categories

one skill i lack is the ability to end a conversation. part of this is definitely midwestern goodbye syndrome. another part is that i don't really get frustrated enough with people to storm out - but even when i used to get angry, i would just keep on arguing

i'm incredibly reticent to write anything down or argue for something that i don't have a thorough background in, and that makes it really difficult to 1) form connection with others 2) learn from community 3) concretize my understanding. I suppose the last one is the problematic double edged sword

fucking up my recently fixed sleep sched just for the lolz

it's actually ruining my enjoyment of the podcast to quibble over myself with the comments, i'm gonna cry

i'm going insane writing a book report in n0's comment section about marx every month, it has to end here

when are the irl devs gonna drop the dark mode texture pack for the sky

early 2000s art fascinates me so much, it feels like it has its own weltanschauung that existed for such a small blip, one that I cherish

i'm actually really really socially inept it's a problem lol

i really wanna re-read Capital and Postone, but i haven't really been in a reading mood for a while :/

i'm starting to think i have a problematic relationship with food :o

I don’t love Answer in Progress’s particular brand of quirk, but at least they try to do the reading. So many “video essayists” will just confidently assert things about entire fields of study they have no familiarity with. Pls god make it stop, or at least be more self-aware and less arrogant.

Also holy shit I worked like 10 hours today even after work all I can think about is work wtf is wrong w me

Today I was saved by the ambiguity of my customer and advisor having the same first name - I’m such an idiot lol

What the fuck does corporate speak even mean? What “deliverables” are implied by a “deep dive”? I’m going to kill you

update about some of the twinks in question: 1) not nearly as cute irl vs online, photos out of date 2) weird laugh (and constantly laughing) 3) talks really loudly all the time, very aggressive 4) eats gross yes i am a professional h8r

modifying css is super comfy, albeit a little bit tedious and fragile in case the site owner changes anything

i need a better intro to comments about my life than "it's funny that...". like, i am genuinely entertained, intrigued, humored by it, but idk if 'funny' really fits, and it's also kinda repetitive. just cold opening and getting directly into description seems wrong tho,

it's funny how different shows/videos have different ideal speeds i settle into. not sure if i can nail down exactly all the factors, but audio balance (specifically dialogue vs. music volume), subtitle reliance, and visual relevance all play a role.

it's actually really nice to go out to restaurants with a friend or friends where they eat and i just get to hang out. i've been able to experience that a fair amount in the past half year and i can think of a few reasons why i appreciate it:

they keep trying to force House into this scientism box when he's so clearly not. Rationality Bros don't have the emotional intelligence to psychoanalyze that well. it's fine most of the time, but there are several moments where it's clear the writers were directly referencing

half of me wishes there was an edit button on this site, and the other half of me is grateful there isn't because i would spend hours lingering on posts editing them to get precise wording (which is never precise enough)

i need a better word for anthropologically cute

When my officemate isn’t traveling, I just book 5 different conference rooms throughout the day and bounce between them. It’s a really bad solution but idk what else to do

uwu

Percussion autists are the most maligned and oppressed group

Lol I hate sharing space with other people, I have a bunch of tics and habits that make others uncomfy or annoyed. You don’t want me around, I don’t want to be around you, pls stop making me be here

the weather is so gloomy and dismal today :3

Stop sexualizing the cute twink coworkers that are smarter than you and have pretty hair and nice eyes and strong arms that could pin me down and strong voices that make my knees weak challenge

i miss old grav radius, idc if it was op

One subset of persistent things I picked up from my 4.5y gf (before she dumped me) was a bunch of good hygiene habits, which makes me wonder how I landed her in the first place lol. ig low expectations for high school boys, but yeesh

Today is the first day I’ve left work after 5pm since starting 4 months ago - let’s hope this doesn’t become a habit For legal reasons this post is fanfic I’m writing from the pov of a greedy prole taking advantage of her poor multi-billion dollar employing company’s good graces (very sad)

Also gameplay feels less reliant on explicit design choices (reworked villager trading round 462) and more oriented around emergent properties of the base mechanics