a goal for today is to drink more water

i kinda don’t like the idea of identity migrations and pointers to other identities

happy i still have the willow label and happy ollie used pink instead of black

soooo sneexy achoo

bweh my eyes hurt

as in i’m tired and have to do a lot today

if i’m lucky i could just join the bridge line, but im actually not sure which way would let me fade into the background more easily

i noticed immediately but naively thought “ah that’s fine, they won’t conflict since they wouldn’t hang in the same circles”

finished perception today, §132 tmrw

my mind has so much more peace when its not filled with anxiety of others

my discomfort with things is very grating and whiny and distended

i think it's usually a lack of confidence in that discomfort and rather weak ability to understand it. sometimes that unconfidence is appropriate but then i'm tempted to say its unclear why im speaking on it, to which the obvious rejoinder is that i have to struggle with it and misstep first

to arrive at understanding worth confidence. that's not sufficient but its a step. the other case is where i could stand to be a little more confident in which case i still lack clarity of self but again thinking out loud can kinda be helpful. sometimes that expression is counterproductive tho

and theres too much space being filled. and sometimes its like excessive trying to account for every nook and cranny and pre-empting objections and thats just ugly and messy

ooh if you haven’t gone on a walk yet can i just listen along

main is my meta-meta-meatspace identity

yea i’ll take one, i miss you

transparently it’s the first time i checked in like a week, you were right about what you said

i really don’t intend to be using this account to communicate

it’s chilly i wish the sun was warm

i like dotes’ sticky notes type things at 4:55:00ish in 24hr vlog2

i know it’s common but like just having some established intentional self-developments, not these overarching things, very targeted and simple physical reminders of something you want to help a future you with

i have a few emotional attitudes it could be approached with and they’re all interesting. present you communicating with future you. compassion or derision or care or frustration or all sorts of things. the gendered associations help here. it goes between all those things and that’s cute

nietzsche on promises being for the powerful, mastering control of one’s will, typa vibes

i had this article laying around from this post (actually didn’t know who it was from until i finished) and yea i really don’t like it very much bsky.app/profile/did:... theconvivialsociety.substack.com/p/if-your-wo...

definitely possibly i’m being grouchy and obtuse but the word that comes to mind is captivation, not enchantment, when describing that kind of attention. i understand we’re kinda wanting it to lead to more things like faith and less cold, more imaginative thinking

but i don’t think attention will get us there

one sec i have a meeting

like reality might not be what we think it is, and it certainly doesn’t have to be some dead inert scientistic thing, but that doesn’t imply enchantment, that just implies being more true to truth. and yea the model for attention is fine enough (although it’s left rather underspecified)

that’s what’s spent the largest amount of time on, and not so much the connection to enchantment, which i kinda thought was the main point of the article. it’s just posited and the relationship is left unexplored.

idk it mainly seems like the thrust of the point is “mundane things can be profound” and yea, cool. i don’t see how enchantment is doing much for you here.

“don’t be ashamed to be impressed by the little things” mmk thumbs up emoji

ig im also extra protective of disenchantment because i feel like thats actually really powerful of a contribution, and has direct meaning in the “de-magic” sense and also crucially as an elliptically temporal concept. it implies prior enchantment to be investigated!

these two senses are distinct, and enchantment / disenchantment could both be true, but because of how thin the former is, i’m not very compelled to entertain it, especially because it’s sort of trying to position itself as an opponent of disenchantment

(“re-enchantment” maybe? now that would be more interesting!)

although that would be a more fruitful line of inquiry, still, this is kind of being posited as an ethical project/ideal, and disenchantment is more of a descriptive analysis. i guess you could make a case like “in spite of disenchant one ought to fight the tide of history to experience enchantment”

which idk depends on a lot of other stuff and the specific understanding of disenchantment. frankly that seems like the motivation, retrograde return to religion. zzz

unpinned again it’s bad for me

my week being going so fine then boom 2 day critical turboroom :(

kinda fucked up that you still have to do the speech part of the speech-act

and that describing the intended act in speech is not a substitute

taking a vow to never become elite talent

wait that’s not as impressive or subversive as you think it is buddy

old habits die hard

i’ve been saying

lol good god there’s a qan for not naming ai agents and they linked this horrible article that basically directly relates to what this root was in response to

“ai ethics” is fucking bleak rn. adriana placani what r u doing

we’re just plucking random shit out of random literature and asserting things. weird definitions everywhere, random abstractions worm their way in,

cringe undergradcore “dating back to [hume, aristotle, etc.]” like you think you’re strengthening your point by establishing a pedigree but really you’re just embarrassing yourself