oh huh i wonder if some of the unease is that i hadn't been supplementing experience with relatable autism, like i haven't listened to dotes in a bit

worried about what that means when i do properly finish their vids. its comforting for someone to express so frankly the things they feel

highkey pretty humiliating to have a digital record stretching back to versions of myself i don't really like

and that includes like, 6 hours ago at any given moment

§56

a concept reveals to us its being, being is revealing itself through our engagement with the concept. the concept is not related to the being in an arbitrary way, but in a necessary way

69 basically summarizes what ive been talking about for a bit on ineffability. again just going to repeat that now feels like a better time for this once i have practically felt the painful limits of that. originally it was kinda just "ok ok yea sure you're giving the standard philosophy line"

83 is hard for me. i think i can see what is being said but im not sure if it actually solves anything

kasey is so cool

proud to be the only joyfriend that made it

i can already tell this was a great fucking idea man

one of these days i’m gonna turn on sound in overwatch and ill win some games

shoulda washed my blanked today

you are becoming increasingly incomprehensible darling

i miss futur

i have no creative use for guilt

oops i talked to too many people and broke my brain again, i'm too attached to it

contributed too much, gotta grill

blegh i should shower to refresh my mind

hope julie is alright, we kinda go quiet when discourse pops up

today was kind of a more gummy, weighed down day. less springy. that being said tho its cool i kinda now have to tools and ability to realize (i.e. produce) things on a whim, even things i've wanted for some time

very grateful to jonas always

would like to return the favor someday, not sure what that would look like and im not gonna sweat it for now

interestingly in the direction of classically conservative thought and further away from residual enlightenment rationalism

this is another way of saying i think i've been humbled a lot more at this point. it might be too much to say i have humility yet though

kasey and i regularly just say it out loud back and forth to one another as a stim

wow apple speech recognition sucks

oops double linked the same thing bsky.app/profile/temu...

@dreary.dev has 92 collections in their repo ^-^

my bluesky account is kinda like this

oh nice you ended up getting them, what do you think?

its a whole genre of post thats like "pbc did evil and my main takeaway is its awesome that theoretically someone could do something to avoid it"

dont wanna go fishing for examples but pbc employees do this too and its just kinda wacky

not really applicable to the immediate example, although part of what i was getting at anyway was not placing specific emphasis on agency (hence lazy 'evil' [which i suppose is actually counterintuitive]). ig it's more like "pbc can do no wrong and if it can then its ok bc le decentralize (gesture)"

a glorbo STOLE my feed

ideal conditions has officially surpassed burger security, long gif, moderation discourse, and mary pds

@dreary.dev has 92 collections in their repo ^-^

ew i very much dislike ai pfps

behold the ideal parental relationship: quarterly wellness checks

they're calling her the greatest dismissive/avoidant puppy in the whole wide world

hm i feel lightheaded, i should probably be eating something more substantial but i dont wanna

you don’t need a separate appview (in this case)

!! hell yea

wouldn’t wanna overwhelm you but tree tabs are cool too

kasey came home drunk and sexually assaulted me cutely

love her

i didn't appreciate it very much at the time, but my course with emily fletcher was pretty great for exposing me to a lot of contemporary feminist philosophy that i regularly think about. it was far too analytical and anglophone-influenced but having the entry point was still really valuable

the syllabus doesn't speak my language by it engages my emotional faculties in the right way and is oriented around interesting concepts, even if it asks the wrong questions and gives worse answers