getting on e has significantly changed how i think about politics

that really fucking pissed me off bsky.app/profile/did:... fuck you. bsky.app/profile/did:... bsky.app/profile/did:...

i might be more upset about the fact that it is an instantiation of such a revolting thought pattern than the personal slight itself

fucking malignant and pernicious to even have that disposition in you

maybe i shouldn't have given the /nbh disclaimer because it does have wider applicability but whatever

honestly, i'm fucking angry that my friends' anger is dismissed, and i'm disgusted that anger as such is deemed categorically inappropriate as a reaction

this is affective injustice btw, if you're into describing things that way

@ nobody here, just some repugnant interaction i had the displeasure of viewing earlier

unfortunate, i gained a follower

sched: ~40§ / week. 1-2 vids / weekday.

gotta love making the familiar strange

§32 is great for "the tremendous power of the negative". analysis breaks up the familiar into thoughts which are themselves familiar but what is separated is the essential negative moment.

holding onto dead intert objects requires strength (eg. positivism). beauty lacks strength and hates understanding (eg. esotericism). spirit doesnt shrink from death but devastates itself and maintains itself through this process of dismembering analysis

i think really this is what is at stake with my recent turning away from this "let's get lost" mindset. that yes for a long time i was too determinate, too fixed, i needed to think myself out of my time and place. but what i failed to recognize (and probably couldn't have recognized until going

through it painfully) was that escape from determinateness and understanding was just that negative moment but wasn't the last word. yes i was overwhelmed with assertions and bad dismemberments and impositions of legibility for others. but just rejecting those doesn't move you anywhere by itself,

it's just pure resistance. historically necessary resistance that i now feel ready to supersede, which is why this is an apt time to return to hegel

gonna take a break again. preface, §33

ah yes 33 talks about the need for what i described above a bit. but its kinda dancing between conceptions in a way that my (eg.s) were too fixed about i think

as in there are specific moments and processes of defamiliarization and refamiliarization that you can't really characterize some way of thinking of as a whole, it might contextually be one or the other

the one thing thats kinda sticking with me is philosophy as activity, like its not just that i have been rusty or out of practice but like, there was a kind of dogmatism to my thought that became fixed and uncontextual, continually rolled out, and the more it was repeated the more untrue it became

drawbacks of a backwards-looking way of life

the mathematical sections are good but well-trodden to me at this point so i don't have much to say on it

i think i have at some points been a despiser of scientific pomposity and scientific procedure of all kinds. safer heuristic when you've been burned but it's time to move past the trauma

Instead of entering into the immanent content of the thing, it is forever surveying the whole and standing above the particu­lar existence of which it is speaking, i.e. it does not see it at all.

break again. §56

i have to say i love the tension though

when a particular discourse is going on, i feel there's basically an obligation to not discuss other things to distract from the conversation

one reason is the obvious that these things run on steam and taking away from that is anti-solidaristic. another is that there is some communal knowledge to be gained by a group of people having the same conversation.

not like "one part of the community catches up to other people that possess the knowledge" (although in many cases thats what it will look like), you'll also see people trying things out and seeing how they land, reassessing and revisiting existing experiences with new context, laying battle lines,

idk its just a cool and rare social phenomenon, and bsky dev scene is still small enough that there is a community to speak of, not like things get subsumed in the sea of twitter.

i also like that, in part because it's smaller, the pace of things is slower. there's more time to meditate on the discussion and having that pervade the air one breathes is pretty beneficial for progress

god devs are such retards

downvote downvote downvote

in the long run, we're all dead

you can just DO shit

unwarrantedly polemical (the fact that i've been)

yea we're all implicated in evil, obviously. especially when you're performing roles in institutions. and furthermore its important not to just flatten over the particularities of such evil though!

thats the main thing that bugged me about diza's objection and characterization of me before. like yea obvi we're all implicated but that doesn't mean you just throw up your hands and flatten everything out. the difference DOES matter, even if it were just quantitative (it's not)

i didn't do a good job of analyzing my own particularity but the specificity nonetheless matters a great deal. the aversion to recognition (even going so far as to deny!) is embarrassing*. the dismissal is preemptive and the characterization as slave morality misses the more true morality embedded

in the expression, however haphazard. *i'm bringing multiple people into conversation here and leaving one unnamed so it might be kind of unclear what im getting at

god that was fucking ELECTRIC

merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast merkletr.ee/fast

unironically tabbed out to start playing this after reading "they’re identification methods, but not decentralized identification methods" and it only got better from there

unrelenting bar after bar, fucking tight writing, and it's inarguable that she's put in the work to earn every word

somewhat apprehensive about the fallout but we'll see where this goes

hm this thread focused on the rhetorical properties but i should be clear that it only works as well as it does because it doesn't overstep itself and there are fantastic citations for everything. the brevity is impressive because it demonstrates acute discernment and domain expertise

let ya nuts hang queen

swapping between dotesmite and hegel is so peak as an effort-relief cycle

using buzzwords like this is very goofy nooby undergradcore but its useful to invoke an immediate sense of what im reading yknow