i miss the way that you are when you’re away from her

i should upload this album today

i think i'm a bit misunderstood on this point, or at least the stress i have in mind isn't clear. i use “not purely” rather intentionally to negate without positively identifying with assumed opposite

triangles are not my strongest shape. i kinda suck at geometry in general. the attractive part of the concept is the connections and overlap i can observe relatively independently, almost this one-sided non-dyadicism. there’s a reason i also made this post, and don’t see them as contradictory:

i’m still being confusing, so i think an example might help. i am comforted by the continual overlap in music for *o and *, despite them never being in direct contact. the affinities i note are this sprawling and blooming thing, and the density is gratifying and lovely.

i really mean to say that my loves are contextualized with all my other loves, and yes this often means i want to share those noticings and reflections with the beloveds! nonetheless there is some preferred separation there, at least for the satisfaction of this specific type of desire to flourish.

i also like “non-dyadic” because it can also imply “less than 2 (but not quite 1!)”, which fits nicely with the related schizoid-style fantasy indulgences.

sometimes i like not fleshing all this out, because i feel locked in to a specific interpretation once i articulate it, and it has the ability to imply too one-dimensional a view. but i have been leaning on that too much for quite some time, and occasionally it’s nice to put the effort in to

figure out what i mean, try to put myself together. i usually learn a lot in the process, new things come into focus, it’s then generative material to bounce off of and engage with, contrary to this (tongue-in-cheek) post:

i often don’t know what i mean yet, and sometimes it’s not the right season for me to know. but i believe my current season is one of grasping the knowledge i previously discovered

(one among many contexts, anna was more accurate to the one i had in mind at the time)

something like that

wow i misread this and thought of that one discord video where the girl sits on a monster can

ok i’ll have to find it when i get home, i haven’t looked for porn in 10 months and didn’t realize everything is unusable now

annie nooooo 🥺🥺🥺

alt text: serves u right, nicotine-addled freaks, the whole lot of you

i already quoted this in your replies before, you need new material smh

(i’m kidding, it’s always funny)

i’ve been a little more didi-pilled as of late tho

it’s funny bc my discourse participation has been entirely sourced from the paltry threads that reached comfy

very little of my pov is specific to any given flare up

at this point tho i’m pretty detached from it all, and as you all know it’s not like i’m technically competent enough to be running my mouth here anyways

goeo is also right that doing hot girl shit is necessary but not sufficient

which is, there’s, roughly speaking, shreyan and there is, roughly speaking, goeo. shreyan says (it’s a bit of exaggeration, but she says): bluesky can do nothing, we must decentralize ourselves. the other side is goeo, which is that atproto remains deeply enmeshed with bluesky and

that core components require revision and additional support for meaningful decentralization to be possible. i just think goeo is more likely to be right about that, and that we must be scrupulously careful with and skeptical of the stewards of the protocol.

that's not an argument, just an explanation. bsky.app/profile/did:...

ngl i feel pretty cute for this one

wagie wife moment

periods differentiated by distinct temporal relations are consistently one of the most profound things to me

it just structures so much of the basic ways one is oriented, it’s importance can easily be forgotten or dismissed

all the cool kids are moving to leaflet i think

you and juliet making up for a lot of dead weight

my microdiscourse take is that i don’t like when people downplay the significance of unpleasant developments with the fact that there is a workaround

tho the workaround makers are obvi the coolest cats

however, software workaround makers still suffer the same deficiencies of their ilk

it’s dope being out of the loop accly

i’d be lying if i said i didn’t have misgivings, but they’re more political than interpersonal

b-b-but marcus

sorry for always using your replies as my free association zone

jreg 🤝 jessica fern

cucked :/

wait no don’t fix it 🥺

slowly working on it