i dislike most men

it's partially about who they turn me into

i overheard the word “contractarianism” and my philosophy autism got instinctually excited but i should have known they were just talking about billing bullshit

i kinda despise the simultaneity of my life right now. i’m always in multiple contexts at once but im not particularly invested in any of them

i want to lose myself again

mary has a point tho, my hrt time isn’t even hour-precise most days

maybe we can play pretend

i wish you were someone else

you’re the only approval i need 🩷

it’s been an hour are you still going

timeless question honestly

play hair

alt text is so real

the fit is so markcore

everyone is always asking for this

imagining you exasperated is so adorable omfg

dont be coy jojo you get the post

shinoa is irreversibly associated with cloudburst for me

thats not punk rock

hi

im always saying this

heyy i see what u did there

ur such a dork lol ❤️

its so sad that the people who will get this post and the people who will approve of this post are disjoint sets

do you see why i'd need your protection now

hello again

delusional girls with unpronounceable political theories be like

sob

i am a partisan of moral depravity #FreeLulu

/gen /pos

i have so many tasks to catch up on

is this anything

i don’t mind the words, and i appreciate the engagement 🙂 unfortunately my rejoinder is going to be same old and tired one i always use (mostly in deactivated prxr threads): i am simply not individually powerful enough to meaningfully overcome my conditions, and its not as simple as choosing better.

[sidebar: i obviously can't reconstruct the thread but my half of the most explicit prxr convo can be found with main.bsky.dev/search?q=fro... // pdsls.dev/at://did:plc... 3l53erhsh5622 ]

especially if that “choice” is relegated to the private sphere. it’s not a victory to carve out happiness where i'm granted the permission, it’s a shameful acquiesce to the status quo.

i'm always told "well yes, of course you must punch in your 45 hours that are corrosive and deadening, but think of the life you can live outside of those hours!". but it's not as if my life outside is not deeply influenced by how i spend the bulk of my time.

i'm aware mine is a hopeless and unreasonable demand; nonetheless, the strategy of making peace with my situation is grossly offensive. writhing when pain is inflicted upon me is the last vestige of humanity i can hang onto. i am philosophically opposed to happiness.

apologies for throwing so much at you, this is just a well-worn path of mine that i obviously have lots to say on and i won't let go. luv u lots

eh. character is pretty malleable to circumstance, and my circumstances are pretty grim. (all the standard caveats that this is not a judgement about my position relative to my peers, this is about my (our) historical positionally)

minima moralia 36

the notion of validity wrt identity is retarded, mostly because identity is retarded

you’re right, it’s weird that my go-to for anti-valid is “smite”

care abt u 2 bestie

gonna smite u

not you 😭 sara has unlimited pontification privileges

i am interested in what you have to say and your reply was relevant and comfy. what i don’t care for is randos calling me valid or npc-posting

poor willow, all alone in the world. where my wertkritik tech bros at

it’s an indictment of my character that i’ve become less idiosyncratic

one of the downsides of my posting devolving into flat, banal statements with wide interpretation is that i receive a bunch of pontificating replies i don’t care about