on memory

intentionality is an important theme in my life right now

i was intention-averse for a while and i have such a distaste for it now. against against articulation.

"tgirl philosophy book club" i vomited in my mouth

mary is right that everyone is being cynical and nasty and it's ugly but the only alternative ive found to not be this way is hibernation and i don't want to do that right now

whatever i'm killing the taro feed, its been busted since relay upgrade and i don't care enough about proto anymore to fix it

list still active yknow

it's neat when learning is fun and engaging, but that isn't the point of learning. mark rober slop makes you feel like you're learning but doesn't leave you with anything on its own. often learning is painful and frustrating and it's all the better for it.

also i imagine this is a discrepancy in type 1 fun type 2 fun type 3 fun etc

oh my god i'm like insane anxious bro djdhdndhahdj i hate criticals

learning isn't meant to be fun or engaging

grrr twitter has me seeing pedagogy takes again, curse u jules

i became too distraught about the state of my passions to reply sorry my lovely independent omega

idk anything about that i'm a caring beta dom

it's ok we have new sub roles now smile

u finally understand my bliss

all that's left is to skip all filler segments and reduce the opacity so you can overlay it on your competitive first person shooter match

i feel like usually it just betrays a misunderstanding of the noun, or at least an unwarranted shamefulness about it and a diluted message to appeal to moderates (of which the author is likely a recent tepid convert)

not to be a bully but my favorite example is the author of polysecure

was searching in archive for unrelated reasons and was surprised to see this thread lol, funny timing given yesterday

(yesterday)

everyone makes fun of me for running librewolf because they don't realize it's like running debian stable as a browser

smh why are we trying to copy the goat

kinda crazy how beneficial a good night's sleep can be, i was really not feeling it yesterday and i feel a lot more fresh today

also a shower

hailey dot at

i dislike every step of the canned dialogue tree that begins: "ai is being used for x thing, skirting existing norms of responsibility, and this is bad" "this is good actually, this could lead to the reduction in having to do x"

idk it's just always too narrow and stupid. what kind of institutional structure could produce x as a reasonable demanded activity and why do we have any reason to believe that ai performance of x would alleviate those pressures, even if adequately performed (big if in the short term)

the best part of the night is when i peel off my sweatshirt and curl up in the covers and the worst part of the night is when i have no one to hold

not to be a hater but the new bandcamp embed sucks shit

it would still suck shit even if it weren't completely broken on android (that part is par for the course)

i was kinda distracted and unfocused but i don't regret that call

imagine my pain as an employee of a company that swapped from visual basic to electron

on the other hand, our application that has 3x the loc of the windows operating system can run in a browser now so that's neat

ur allowlisted somehow, can't explain it

pretty sure im repeating myself here, like multiple times

ive always been more comfortable as an endurance runner anyway

i like skramz more than midwest emo

it's honestly pretty cool that kasey isn't interested in some aspects of my life because then it means i am forced to work out how i want to confide in others

today is not gonna be fun

taking the liberal democratic + capitalist mode of production as given, i think pete buttegeig is basically my ideal candidate, besides maybe the military stuff

but like he's just so boring wonkish evidence-based socdem technocrat-pilled and the thing is, at least in terms of long-term economic efficiency (incl. intra- and inter- national externalities), that's basically as good as you can get

fuck dude im so tired

that sounds absurd on its face but like i did share this romantic view in the unadulterated everyday and the method of expression that dealt in inexplicit reminders of the everyday which more rigorous thought would ironically obscure

even when i didn't explicitly endorse it (and sometimes i did, to some components at least), it was an operating principle of mine. and i would react very coldly to critiques, but characteristically just by avoidantly turning away to other thoughts instead of rejecting the rejection

which is also where nietzsche comes in, and he largely played a similar destructive role on similar methodological points

pragmatism and linguistic philosophy and nonmoral ethicists are just not what i want or need right now. i won't run away from their influence but it's all so tiring and my engagement with it was self-destructive