you feel alone, i seem indifferent

harbleu playstyle so real…

no haptics for you >:(

enbies be like remember that time i was a trans girl

kasey always manages to forget at least one object wherever she goes

i have your socks you freaking gemmy

i’m on the small cock team, you know better than most

couldn’t be me

i'd be leaving something out if i didn't acknowledge that i can only be as undisturbed as i am right now because work isn't horrible

i recognize i lack consistency and am in flux but i am entirely not unsettled by this fact

like normally i’d be like 🫨 zomg everyone panic what’s going on but nah im hella chillin, things are great

even the things that don’t fit so neatly into arc i’m unbothered by, it’s chill to do those things too unconcerned with where im going or what comes next

genuinely baffling work day but i am sworn to secrecy

i knew those signal notifs were from annie but i was hoping for juliet

yea main is worthless

oh my god i did it

yay :)

if you lower your standards enough you can accomplish anything

just keep your mouth shut and it’ll all work out :)

:(

a goal for today is to drink more water

i kinda don’t like the idea of identity migrations and pointers to other identities

happy i still have the willow label and happy ollie used pink instead of black

soooo sneexy achoo

bweh my eyes hurt

as in i’m tired and have to do a lot today

if i’m lucky i could just join the bridge line, but im actually not sure which way would let me fade into the background more easily

i noticed immediately but naively thought “ah that’s fine, they won’t conflict since they wouldn’t hang in the same circles”

finished perception today, §132 tmrw

my mind has so much more peace when its not filled with anxiety of others

my discomfort with things is very grating and whiny and distended

i think it's usually a lack of confidence in that discomfort and rather weak ability to understand it. sometimes that unconfidence is appropriate but then i'm tempted to say its unclear why im speaking on it, to which the obvious rejoinder is that i have to struggle with it and misstep first

to arrive at understanding worth confidence. that's not sufficient but its a step. the other case is where i could stand to be a little more confident in which case i still lack clarity of self but again thinking out loud can kinda be helpful. sometimes that expression is counterproductive tho

and theres too much space being filled. and sometimes its like excessive trying to account for every nook and cranny and pre-empting objections and thats just ugly and messy

ooh if you haven’t gone on a walk yet can i just listen along

main is my meta-meta-meatspace identity

yea i’ll take one, i miss you

transparently it’s the first time i checked in like a week, you were right about what you said

i really don’t intend to be using this account to communicate

it’s chilly i wish the sun was warm

i like dotes’ sticky notes type things at 4:55:00ish in 24hr vlog2

i know it’s common but like just having some established intentional self-developments, not these overarching things, very targeted and simple physical reminders of something you want to help a future you with

i have a few emotional attitudes it could be approached with and they’re all interesting. present you communicating with future you. compassion or derision or care or frustration or all sorts of things. the gendered associations help here. it goes between all those things and that’s cute

nietzsche on promises being for the powerful, mastering control of one’s will, typa vibes

these two senses are distinct, and enchantment / disenchantment could both be true, but because of how thin the former is, i’m not very compelled to entertain it, especially because it’s sort of trying to position itself as an opponent of disenchantment

(“re-enchantment” maybe? now that would be more interesting!)

although that would be a more fruitful line of inquiry, still, this is kind of being posited as an ethical project/ideal, and disenchantment is more of a descriptive analysis. i guess you could make a case like “in spite of disenchant one ought to fight the tide of history to experience enchantment”

which idk depends on a lot of other stuff and the specific understanding of disenchantment. frankly that seems like the motivation, retrograde return to religion. zzz