i think i just need to be more careful about the implications of my emotions, and not to trick myself or others into interpreting them as unconditional or permanent

there can be a lot of slippage between espoused propositions and the objective character of ones actions, and retreat to the former as a defense for the latter is simply untenable and cowardly. in the beginning was the deed

do you wanna call sometime? i miss you

i feel a different kind of discomfort with the phrase to what was expressed here, but it's discomfort nonetheless. i don't want to be so excitable and enthusiastic

"i miss..." yes you do but i wish you wouldn't say so

my tealfm records waaaaa bsky.app/profile/hail...

i should migrate them off the bl*cksky account anyway

i contribute too much myself, i know

there's too much derision in the world and i know it's often necessary but it still hurts to see

crying in my office over the concept of cruelty

i deactivated my other bsky accounts and moved the public discord app off my home screen in an attempt to chill out a bit on social and i folded immediately

my moralist pookie bear

dw abt it i don't think i have much overlap in taste with anyone

i was literally just listening to that !!

i've defi used these trackers before but i dont think your info is on like a public profile for everyone to see lol

i gotta stop recreating records and just deal with the typos, someone always likes it before i can fix them

that's one of the benefits tbh, helps keep me in check

they should make a lastfm for food so you're shamed into eating healthy

the annoying thing is when you finally get on the call you're just their emotional support animal / therapist, and not even anything juicy

i'm being held at gunpoint to perform emotional labor and they don't even have the decency to divulge details about their boyfriend, instead i just hear about how much they hate their job

i should go on a run or something my joints feel miserable after sitting so long

i respect the programmer more

relationship anarchist turned object oriented programmer finds new reason to hate tight coupling

every analyst in the world desperately needs to meet with me on their high priority ticket that needs to be moved into production tomorrow

once you start noticing the pointer cursor you can't stop, it bugs me now

mary has cursed me

okay fine kasey was right im on the edge of regressing a little. gotta not be a capybara

the introspection is excessively dense too, can't get stuck here

at least i know what to look out for now

im not smart or disciplined enough for kasey strats and am thusly punished with the evil parking lot

8:20 on staff day is late but still

i'm so nervous sajkdfjkasd it's fine i know she is too, i just don't want to be a nuisance

i'm so happy she messaged

i've been cautious, and will continue to be, but i like that we're slowly coming back into proximity with each other

i am kinda putting a little too much pressure on it and overthinking it but it's important to me so it's hard not to care

four word horror

i should make more red bean paste dishes again

okay i'm sleep deprived and making poor choices

i think i'm more okay with the state in the abstract than i have previously been

some people are genuinely retarded with money

"i don't have a new job yet but i have a potential offer so im shopping around for an expensive apartment. i regularly beg for money in a panic and will likely do so again soon"

of course, i figured i'd give you the thrill of imaging someone going through the effort like that

everyone asked about you is very similar to rainer maria and i think i really like their sound and themes

okay i need to slow my pace a bit, it's not healthy for me

being social is nice i just have to be more mindful this time

i'm more capable and self-aware now, i'm hoping i can be careful without as many disjunctive retreats

you're not supposed to tell everyone! they'll jetstream you!

horizontal scroll bars are awful design and being stuck with a long and ugly name is not fun

sorry dan's spirit possessed me for a second and i had to subject the world to my inane personal software gripes