i have to meet a customer today irl so i wore my fag fit

cool let's find out if my massive clean-up before PRD downtime caused any issues

snow is wasted on workers of the world

or yknow the northern hemisphere with some exceptions

fuck i'm still really proggy and i gotta work

i used to say i hated genres but now i think they're really important

lilypadgo

blitz go is like insanely stressful lmfao

im a big enough man to admit that when i was .5 tenure i reposted all contacts instead of end contacts on a list of charges in PRD

i also didn't make an output summary, but no one ever questioned me about it

much worse was when i reposted UCLs from a list of ETRs oh my god i wanted to die

that analyst was crazy dumb tho and set me up to fail. anyway that's why im traumatized into doing this

they call me the liability shifter, legal loves me

kasey is the opposite and that's why she's better at her job

WQI is my favorite masterfile

just like how app.bsky.graph.listitem is my favorite kind of record

well whether i wanted to or not i got paged lmao

god did not intend for me to sit immobilized for 10 hours in an office chair, she intended me to be a male stripper with a masters in botany

choose your fighter: meaningful whitespace or meaningful ". "

or more to the point, meaningful ". . . . . "

emily is my nick @juliet @pdsls hashtag atdev

i sent her a teams message do you think she'll block me too

THE REPORTING LEAD IS MERGING A TEMP GLOBAL TO A LOCAL VARIABLE BLAWG 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"just copy my implementation" headass

genuinely it's gonna be so funny if the "performance improvement" was the result of a misindentation bug lmfao

i might stay late tonight (if i can muster the energy)

oh oh i know, let's irrecoverably corrupt the data we gather

that was an annoying adventure but i think we're fixed now ugh

ANDROID IS CUCKED

not so articulate sorry

ur just progged and work was tired, but overall you feel fine and it's supa chill

oh yea right

sometimes i think it's okay for me to whine unqualifiedly, i can tend to suppress my own emotions or over-rationalise them and get myself into trouble, it often ends in inexpressive frustration because i lock myself into being too careful

its just an ugly look because it gives the appearance of entitlement and ignorance of my own inadequacies, but i don't think those are skills i need to more intimately develop right now

i bought my pc at a relatively fortuitous time

tune in next week for more willow gossip hour

i don't particularly enjoy annas newer personality

i would feel bad about muen leaving without getting a proper goodbye but she's kind of a terrible communicator and not actually very interested in me nowadays

it's this strange thing where i feel like im obligated to be the punching bag but don't really enjoy that dynamic too much anymore, it feels kinda outdated

and i get she's upset we didn't talk for a while and that i probably could have been a better friend but also it's kinda unclear how much i really enjoyed her company anymore, i mean i was dodging her for a while for a reason

it was nice to do things with her and be invited to things, she was pleasant enough company in small and intermittent doses

it really made more sense as a relationship prior to her getting a new job. and yknow i think i have an appreciation now for relationships of circumstance that persist beyond their initial reason for being, but that does mean they'll maintain the same significance or weightiness

still, it's unfortunate not to have the chance to extend the marginal effort to see her off properly. or rather, to have the chance but to have it ruined for such underwhelming reasons

i don't really feel like using this account so much

wouldn't it be nice if everything in the world had a clean and stable teleology and also profilicity as an identity technology wasn't so confounding

and it's important that i keep messaging kasey there even though the other one would work just as well

it's one of those things that doesn't integrate nicely with some other sentiments ive accumulated over the years but i think it's an instance where practice beats theory

very crudely, it's important i maintain a public-private identity bifurcation. kasey is disjoint from all my other relationships and also basically the only person in my life i can speak freely with. which like yea, i wish it was otherwise but ive learned that brute forcing it doesn't work

and i don't mean to imply a devaluation of any of my other relationships or put kasey on a pedestal because it's honestly not like i feel especially affectionate towards her right now or anything

idk it's a strange time for me but my footing is sturdier than before, even if i'm still rather ungraceful