unstable vs stable modifications lol

i could go for the low hanging fruit that looks scary to illustrate this, but let's be real no one is changing how the little smiley face looks

modifying css is super comfy, albeit a little bit tedious and fragile in case the site owner changes anything

wish i could do it to mobile apps considering everything is just a web wrapper anyways these days. probably is possible through some method, but more convoluted and jank than through a browser extension, especially on ios. not worth the effort anyways, i hate using my phone.

i need a better intro to comments about my life than "it's funny that...". like, i am genuinely entertained, intrigued, humored by it, but idk if 'funny' really fits, and it's also kinda repetitive. just cold opening and getting directly into description seems wrong tho,

part of the point of commentary is that i evaluate it as cute and enjoyable to reflect upon.

it's funny how different shows/videos have different ideal speeds i settle into. not sure if i can nail down exactly all the factors, but audio balance (specifically dialogue vs. music volume), subtitle reliance, and visual relevance all play a role.

youtube videos easily 2.5x minimum, anime can range from 1.6x to 4x, western tv/movies usually around 2x because of shit balance but can sometimes push it higher.

one time i watched through all of Lain at 8x because 1) i know the dialogue and there isn't much of it, 2) the visuals linger, 3) the flashing is a nice recontextualization method and it was really fun :3

it's actually really nice to go out to restaurants with a friend or friends where they eat and i just get to hang out. i've been able to experience that a fair amount in the past half year and i can think of a few reasons why i appreciate it:

- one of the only social activities where it's socially acceptable for the main mental stimulation to just be one another's company. i prefer just to chat, but some people can get bored or think its weird to not be doing Something. i hate activities. this way, they get an activity and i get my convo

- slower pace of interaction, and breaks are acceptable. food is an activity for downtime in conversation and people aren't weird about it. i have more time to put my thoughts together while they eat.

- when with multiple people, i get more chances and opportunities to talk. if i'm really into a topic, i can engage lots of people at once and i can dominate the convo without it being so much of an imposition

- anthropology/sociology thing that ppl are comfy and let their guard down when eating - kinda this inherently trust building ritual, really cute

i think the reason i have been so emotionally impressed by this is because previously, my family and friends got really weird with me not eating. probably because they knew me pre-eating disorder, or at least were around when it arose.

super judgemental and worried about me the entire time, blegh. it's nice to be around ppl that can just be like "oh that's just what she's like" and move on.

of course, there are still lots of drawbacks: - it's still food lol, can be really gross to watch and smell and be around. especially if its meat.

- still going out. i'm better than i used to be by a long shot, but it's defi not my preference for environment. - sometimes people can use the food or the surroundings as convo inspiration. shallow and dull, kill me

- i feel kinda trapped there, even when i'm uncomfy. ig i've never really tried to leave in the middle, but that kinda supports my point

Also, it's not just the awareness, but the intense interest he shows in the internal lives of those around him. It's exceptionally entertaining and sometimes compulsively motivating for him - that's like half the content of the show! Rationalists (TM) don't affix their attention like that.

they keep trying to force House into this scientism box when he's so clearly not. Rationality Bros don't have the emotional intelligence to psychoanalyze that well. it's fine most of the time, but there are several moments where it's clear the writers were directly referencing

a character trait list and plugged Reddit Atheist Rationalism into the episode's context. Even when it is present it's not so big of a deal - it's usually an issue of degree not kind, and Hugh Laurie does a good job of running with it regardless.

To clarify on the emotional intelligence angle, he's clearly *aware* of the various motivations and emotions people can have, even if he doesn't respect them. But sometimes the writing forgets that and writes a more one-dimensional character instead.

But beyond that, even on an emotional dispositional level, it just doesn't fit that well. He's playful, imaginative, self-deluded, all sorts of things that don't fit with the flat and grey rationalism they (the writers and the other characters) try to ascribe to him sometimes.

And you could argue that's clearly one of the main points the show is trying to demonstrate: House's rationalism doesn't work and is internally incoherent. Sure, duh. But at least don't get so heavy handed with your preaching that you undermine your point by so obtusely presenting the opposition.

half of me wishes there was an edit button on this site, and the other half of me is grateful there isn't because i would spend hours lingering on posts editing them to get precise wording (which is never precise enough)

it doesn't really matter tho because i've just been deleting and reposting with minor changes or replying with addendums anyway lol

i need a better word for anthropologically cute

i have yet to encounter someone that has this same emotional/evaluational type as me though, and it's difficult (for me) to describe, even verbosely

When my officemate isn’t traveling, I just book 5 different conference rooms throughout the day and bounce between them. It’s a really bad solution but idk what else to do

Percussion autists are the most maligned and oppressed group

To clarify, polyrhythmic and arhythmic tippy tappy are cool too (often cooler) :3

uwu

the weather is so gloomy and dismal today :3

It fixed itself 🤕

Lol I hate sharing space with other people, I have a bunch of tics and habits that make others uncomfy or annoyed. You don’t want me around, I don’t want to be around you, pls stop making me be here

Fuck I was so horny I mixed first and second person usage in my skeet, now my 9 blollowers will think I’m an idiot

Stop sexualizing the cute twink coworkers that are smarter than you and have pretty hair and nice eyes and strong arms that could pin me down and strong voices that make my knees weak challenge

If you add “haha” to a Teams message to me, my jaw is going to hurt and my knees are going to be bruised tomorrow 🥺

i miss old grav radius, idc if it was op

One subset of persistent things I picked up from my 4.5y gf (before she dumped me) was a bunch of good hygiene habits, which makes me wonder how I landed her in the first place lol. ig low expectations for high school boys, but yeesh

Today is the first day I’ve left work after 5pm since starting 4 months ago - let’s hope this doesn’t become a habit For legal reasons this post is fanfic I’m writing from the pov of a greedy prole taking advantage of her poor multi-billion dollar employing company’s good graces (very sad)

Also gameplay feels less reliant on explicit design choices (reworked villager trading round 462) and more oriented around emergent properties of the base mechanics

Lol well okay cool ig

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it always puts me in a shit mood - pragmatically its annoying, culturally its disappointing, technologically its myopic, philosophically its incoherent, and politically its depressing. personally, frankly, its frightening. a staggering amount of my personal history there, and no discretionary power.

youtube moderation is hitlerite when it comes to external links im gonna kms

I can’t believe I have work tomorrow That statement is partially a figure of speech but also partially genuinely reflective of the pattern my brain gets into when isolated and degen-ing for a weekend. Reminds it of no homework holiday breaks.

I’d love to say I’m longing for the glory days of _____, but in reality the circumstances all sucked in their own ways, and the person navigating them sucked even more. I really just want my current circumstances minus the obligations (which just so happen to be financing my current circumstances).

Call me lazy if you want, but in my defense: 1) being “productive” is disreputable if sufficiently infused with capitalist ideology 2) I enjoy the hard fun of learning/developing/contributing - I just don’t appreciate doing it at the behest of an apparatus of control with a looming threat over me