wisest people all time ranked: 1. my friends 2. soundcloud rappers 3. karl marx

okay well that's a low bar marx was kind of an idiot, maybe aristotle if you ignore the times he was also an idiot

the nice thing about a second honeymoon period is that it's rather tempered and ambivalent, there's still some unsure excitement but you're too familiar with one another to be under any misconceptions of perfection

for every step forward there's a second thought, a hesitation, a consideration of retreat. which means the continued mutual interest is deliberate and intentional

words have never meant so little to me and danii. verbal expressions of affection are pretty flimsy and low-trust

but things like showing up every week to see each other, texting even when it's imperfect and effortful, sharing not-quite-formed feelings with each other, that stuff isn't exuberant or flashy but it does mean something

i like the pace we're at and its moderate, steady increase

you would not believe how much hair is under my bed

DUDE NO WAY 😭

narcissist that fell for it again award

life gets a lot more comfortable and a lot more confident when you figure out what responsibilities are acceptable (appropriate?) to abnegate and which should be respected

obvi that's a continual process of re-evaluation and it doesn't mean you need to know exactly what form those responsibilities will take, it's usually sufficient to identify (construct/ascribe?) a category and say "'more' or 'less' of that, please"

the concept of responsibility has deontic connotations that sit uncomfortably with gradation, and i'm not sure yet if that means the above formulation is confused or if reality is just confusing like that

you just know some guy used == instead of >=

my feed has optimized itself into asian boys kissing and fox vids

who wants to screw up this take with me a couple dozen times

i think i'm okay just letting myself rest tonight

woohoo I'm headed to kaseyville

somehow i squeaked in all my misc tasks before 5pm

my work has felt fairly sloggish and disorganized this week, and i have a bunch more big ugly projects to do the next, but i really did get through a solid amount by the end of things

tomorrow can't come soon enough

yay vc was rly nice

i think it's kinda interesting how little i mentioned danii, probably because we're still working out exactly what we want to be. whatever it is i think it'll be pretty cool

it's easy to look back and be dismissive about how long my attachment to gail lingered, but spending less than a week away from kasey kitty has me feeling a lot more sympathetic

and i'm not like Dependent in the strong sense, its just like aw my life has a little less sunshine now

all friends come with benefits

killow

KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN YOUR BRAIN IS LYING THAT THEYRE JUST RESTING

i fell asleep and woke back up at 1 to leave vc

im rly tired but i have to wait until they finish this round

they weren't so chatty bc game but that's okay

really i wanna play this one track before bed

whoever gets me for secret santa u know what to do

don't ask why i do the things i do

i had a little too much excited energy coming into this call

warm and proggy (i took 200 early)

ngl i was thinking recently how it was a little strange i didn't have him added as friend, but didn't have a good excuse to do anything about it until now hehe

im scrolling and replying because i wanna be caught by someone

woah wait it's working

like ????

gimme dot moe was put on my feed and it feels a little uncanny since we have somewhat similar features (above the shoulders)

i don't think im all that smart chat

aw i missed dave lol

i don't think i saved screenshots but when i was posting about cutting myself on dreary dot dev he dm'd me to check in how i was doing, that was kind

the almost-heart attack is scary, im glad he's okay