is it normal that i have fairly poor touch typing ability on the number keys

and by extension most of the middle symbols too, like !@() are alright but $%^& are really hard for me

the weather is nice and i like wearing sweaters that are slightly too big for me because they flow around me and have weighty sleeves and make my chest look cute

i miss her so bad on.soundcloud.com/sGunFronWC1x...

i only remember fondly because i got a bunch of account warnings back in the day

i wouldn't have this problem bsky.app/profile/did:...

im a little teapot

i am NOT a little tpot

oh but this too

i gotta stop referencing things but i have so many things to reference

been saying this tho

this phone is so ugly btw how did i live with it for so long

where's the japanese math rock spectrum offshoot where they scream in anguish?

woa amity affliction is still making shit

oh it's so bad 😭😭😭

it was fine to give it one last shot ig lol

live music is usually very bad

complicated chat tonight, i don't love when things are forced to go unsaid

of course we landed on our feet but there were some rocky parts in the middle

it brought it up, not me

shouldn't have sent that text but it's okay

oh i don't like flowers taped to pens as much as i thought i did

maybe emoviolence is not so interesting

practically speaking, it's okay and probably good to deny yourself womanhood because you can’t see yourself meeting some expectation others have set

phrasing stolen from quoted skeet on the skyline

well yknow maybe practical for certain purposes, claiming it before you've earned it might encourage you to live up to the category. or it might do the reverse. so it's whatever really

mainly i just find the validation-before-action approach to be unsatisfying and inaccurate

okay maybe danii does have a point i kind of am dating annie

i am being pelted with rocks engraved with "you need better bitches"

tonight i have an edate with danii, tomorrow night i have an edate with the technical director of a hospital

do you think he'd be jealous if i told him we aren't exclusive >.<

bro holy shit my analyst just casually offering patient MRNs to cloudflare wtf are you doing dawg 😭😭😭

i have too many tttt brainworms to use this word

yea fine you're right

i've only ever known truthy and falsey.. booleans arent real they can't hurt u

pretty sure i was listening to that ost because of your stream lol

also wait this isn't your dms ..

not to dwell on this point but if you knew how ardently i refused to do literally anything beyond what was strictly necessary in my adolescence, i think my current behavior makes a lot more sense

what do we think, am i staying up to watch a movie at 1am with the ex server

the correct answer is nomegalul

id rather be a kantian than a utilitarian or empiricist

this treads into weird territory that instrumentalizes the people you interact with to the extreme, and the reinforcement of that habit shouldn't be ignored, but yknow there's gradations to it

which is why i can't really be all that upset at myself for doing obviously stupid things

part of me says i'm young, try some stuff out you'll probably hate. do things that suck because they push you into uncomfortability. part of me says you're not that young, you need to care about the quality of the things you do. ig i just think you can do the latter with splashes of the former.

in the grand scheme of things what's a thrown away afternoon or two, if it means i'm a little less frightened and confused all the time

i want to move out of this town someday, just to experience something new

this wasn't an accident, i have to do more uncomfortable things