Like it’s “my space” by property rights are kinda bs and maybe (?) could be like personal property space but even then it’s like there’s no way to communicate or put on notice so that seems kinda bs too, also like humans building on land previously inhabited by animals

And then it’s like ok well they’re infringing on my bodily autonomy but it’s like are they? Even if I can say it’s likely does that make it legitimate to do so pre-emptively? And me saying likely is based on species which idk. Like I think it might all just be cope and that im

Just disturbed and bothered by their presence, but that doesn’t seem like very strong moral grounds. Idk so yeah that is really hard

Dude today has been like low key traumatic. It’s been move in week for ppl so they set up a big dumpster outside for trash and it has a bunch of flies, and somehow they’re getting in my apartment. It freaks me out so much having them around, and killing them is dubious ethical

Philosophy of relationships has always been incredibly important to me and my understanding of how I connect with others. Drifting between various understandings during adolescence drastically altered how I interacted with others. Often this wasn't exactly conscious choice by me

and that just made it all the more confusing for those around me. Especially with those I had long term relationships with, namely Gail. It has taken a long time but I think relationship anarchy has given me a framework to understand social relationships in a compelling and

beautiful way. Elegant in its simplicity, but difficult to follow through on given the state of current society. Modern understandings are contradictory and often immoral if followed to their conclusions.

Trying to make sense of them has led to a lot of pain for those around me, but I'm glad I've found something I think can work for me.

It feels like that implies that capitulation is necessary, like trying to cover up or eat less or whatever, but honestly that will never work. There will always be something, and it will never be good enough. And all of these standards are bullshit anyway, informed by garbage

World views. I can often shake out of it, like the requirement for men to be muscular or whatever, but some random things just have really caught me and dug in, namely weight appearance stuff. Idk sucks

I hate my existence being tied to a physical body so much :/ should honestly prob look into transhumanism stuff to flesh this out and think more about

Flat and less noticeable. I don’t really ever think about it until it’s pointed out, and then I feel pretty embarrassed and humiliated for some reason. Like “I was foolish for thinking something this ugly would go unnoticed, and that I was foolish for acting like it was

Irrelevant when it clearly matters” but that’s stupid and obv not true. Idk just is weird that I’m at a point in life where everyone pretends not to notice and doesn’t say anything, but it’s basically the first thing people see and I imagine I get judged prematurely for it

Constantly. Kinda just frustrating ig. Body image in general just really odd for me, like I don’t care at all because it doesn’t impact the things I most care about, but there are undeniable standards that make life confusing and difficult.

Getting cosmetic surgery for my neck tomorrow. I really hope it helps. I honestly don’t mind too much intrinsically, but others treat me a little weird for it I think. It was fading for a bit but more recently it’s become larger and more red. It would be nice to have it

looked more into this person, idk kinda boomer cringe shit but idk mostly just posted as a resource i was thinking about - basic and fine enough

Why Tolstoy so based on war and prisons but so cringe on marriage (also prison)

Marriage is between one enby, one trans woman, and one gender fluid person. Anything else is an abomination. -god probably

let him but understand that all the foolish things the world teaches him to consider as indispensable are but useless trash, and he will not work beyond his strength; he will not have to endure suffering and constant care; he will not have to labor without purpose or rest;

He will not be deprived of communion with nature, or of the work he loves, or of his family or his health, and he will not die a uselessly painful death.

Were a man but to act as he finds best for himself, were he but to refuse to go to war, he would have to dig ditches; but he would not be tortured in Sebastopool or Plevna. Let a man not believe that it is indispensable to wear a watch chain and to have useless drawing rooms,

inside you there are two wolves

actually this is a banger its going on main

incredible

My haircut made it so I lost the breakpoint of having the top easily and comfortably going behind my ears on its own T^T rough to adapt to now

Oh my god they’re so hot lol. I’m so out of practice being flirty fuck lmao, this is nice tho :)

Also I’m aware this will age poorly and is not all that much, but it’s p forward for how much we’ve talked and that’s cute and also I’m happy so idc 😎

some ‘hot water characteristics’. It’s terminological trickery: the internal structure of the thing remains the same, and insisting that it be called something else because it’s in contact with something else (without changing its internal structure) does nothing to change either

the fact of its internal structure or what we can expect to result from it. The results of spilling 100-degree Celsius water on yourself will be the same whether you say it’s ‘hot water’ or ‘cold water with hot water characteristics’.

So too, anarchists argue, will retaining a hierarchical state, regardless of how you label it.

It might be argued that the existing, hierarchical state, if and when it has been seized by a ‘true’ socialist party and has successfully transitioned from capitalism to an early stage of socialism, will lose its capitalist character. Even if such a state retains some

hierarchical ‘capitalist characteristics’, it will now be a properly democratic workers’ state, which can be relied upon to carry out universal emancipation. This argument is a bit like saying that boiling water, once moved from a pot to a glass, is now really cold water with

"helping others process emotional stress" - an patriarchal expectation I don't think I've examined thoroughly enough in my own actions and behavior. I think in large part I took advantage of this expectation in my relationship with Gail and didn't give her the space, room, and

ability to comfortably refuse to constantly perform this work for me. Obviously it was appreciated and very important to me, but that doesn't make it any less coercive or problematic. I also don't think I did a very good job of reciprocating this work. I'll think more about.

i am immensely interested in informal social structures of power

The society of the future should be nothing other than the universalization of the organisation with which the international will have endowed itself. We must, therefore, have to care to ensure that that organisation comes as close as we may to our ideal.

How can we expect an egalitarian and free society to emerge from an authoritarian organisation? Impossible.

The international, as the embryo of the human society of the future, is required in the here and now to faithfully mirror our principles of freedom and federation and shun any principle learning towards authority and dictatorship.

We have the potential to find both autonomy and security without having to sacrifice one for the other. We get to revel in creating with one another, and love becomes a precious gift rather than a heavy obligation.

While it would be a mistake to pretend that rethinking, revalueing, and recreating the way we see and practice relationships isn’t difficult work— it is— it would be an even greater mistake to ignore the reason we set to that work to begin with.

We do this to open up joyful possibilities. A process-centered approach to relationship is ultimately about reveling. When we find ourselves connected to and in community with people we love and we refuse to let ourselves get tangled up in expecting and enforcing outcomes,

we can truly revel in the best part of relationships: witnessing each other. We get to experience the joy of growing into ourselves the way that is true and healthy for us, and we get to bear witness and support those we love dearly getting to do the same.

the past sucks, im not looking forward to the future either.

In other news, muzhoka knows this really cute gay guy that streams and he’s so fucking hot

Also, my hair is getting longer in the front and that makes me quite happy