From the start, whatever happiness is intermittently tolerated or granted by the existing entirety bears the marks of its own particularity. To this day, all happiness is a pledge of what has not yet been, and the belief in its imminence obstructs its becoming.
The only responsible option is to deny oneself the ideological misuse of one’s own existence, and as for the rest, to behave in private as modestly, inconspicuously and unpretentiously as required, not for reasons of good upbringing,
The goal of the well-integrated personality is objectionable because it expects the individual to establish an equilibrium between conflicting forces, which does not obtain in existing society. Nor should it, because these forces are not of equal moral merit.
the day i escape from labor is the day i become capable of inhuman thought. i will die before this luxury, and will helplessly gasp and sputter for it nonetheless.
i actually tried several times to get a result and kept quitting before finishing because it made me upset.
i hate the type of thinker i have become over the last two years. i don't even have cognitive access to a version of myself that would be more adequate.
my past is not a utopian blueprint, but i've been traveling in the wrong direction for a while now, and i wish i could trace my steps back to a place where i could start over.
that being said, here are my results:
1) tangled mess
2) how i think when given space to breathe; philosophically
3) work
i don't have an identity.
that's cool when i can float around and be an ironist, a mask-wearer with no face.
it's less cool when i'm coerced into one particular mode for another's purposes on another's time table.
my lungs are stained black, and i'm tired of choking on smoke.
i dream of a world where your type can live without humiliation - our systematizers are indeed worthy of admiration, but so are our ever-reproached romantics
our indiosyncryatics should be permitted to drift with the winds, unencumbered and blissfully ignorant of the very notion of permission