i’ve always found it very compelling to look at how people use software without the opportunity to explain why. the legibilizing is always ad hoc, i want to explore the decontextualized usage.

“distract me from ‘my mood, ah-ha’” is more plausible than ‘the rude at heart’ but genius lyrics’ UI is evil and wants to kill me so i refuse to use it

going outside + driving again is so fucking dismal. i don’t want to go back to work :(

the last 4 days were a breath of fresh air and now it’s gone

all roads lead back to Waifu Wednesdays eventually

the people demand another fusq EP

having fun making custom folder icons :3

!foryou

i have problems

i wish i was a pretty girl

that time i was reincarnated as extra emily (but i didn’t have to apply my own make up)

in case there was any confusion, in this fantasy i do NOT acquire her personality (i'd kms)

i wish she would record hours and hours of her just talking. i love her voice, i love her thoughts. for the people i admire, i honestly think that’s my ideal relationship. just consuming their ideas one-sidedly on my own terms.

it feels like the appropriate distance, both for my sake* and for theirs *i agree it’s potentially endorsing vices of mine of anxiety and avoidance rather than dealing with them, but in context im still unconvinced these are deficiencies in my character and not deficiencies in social expectation

i dont understand why people want to maintain moralistic concepts when it’s clearly so cumbersome. just say that this is violence and that you’re okay with it. you don’t even have to jump to “justifying” it, since that already assumes violence is inherently or even primarily evil by default.

maybe i just have philosophy autism but its kinda frustrating to see people so committed not advancing their evaluative model of the world. congrats your tribalism led you to cooler moral intuitions, but now its time to update your framework to not be nonsensical (hopefully drop the whole paradigm)

on the other hand, if you’re self-consciously engaging in rhetoric then that’s a political judgement of efficacy (though one i think you’ve made a poor choice with by short-term appealing to dominant values that undermine your long-term goals),

or if you’re drawing attention to the disparity in severity of violence between oppressors and oppressed then that’s chill too, but i don’t think that message was intended or received

this is the closest i’ve seen to a full throated endorsement (that is to say, not at all). baby steps? jk we’re doomed

oh no don’t be sorry at all. this wasn’t targeted at you, i had a few people i was messaging that i felt this way about. plus, i think it’s really really important and valuable for people not to have the obligation to reply (for months or even indefinitely). my worry is my responsibility to fix here

especially since the worry is like “what if i’m cringe and they are disgusted by me”, which is very clearly just self esteem and unfounded anxiety. i need to be more confident with being vulnerable and putting myself out there.

i wish you all good luck at avoiding your family this holiday season

it’s very silly but messaging people and not getting a reply right away can sometimes make me extremely self conscious and anxious. and then like 5% of my brain’s RAM is dedicated to worrying about it until i hear something back or decide to let it go. i need to work on that somehow, very unhealthy

lol i added the firefox delay blocker to my filers and it's so much faster. fuck google. if anyone's interested:www.youtube.com##+js(nano-stb, resolve(1), *, 0.001) or:www.youtube.com##+js(nano-stb, resolve(1), 5000, 0.001)

i should have no when she asked me to go out tonight

i was actually feeling okay today but now i’m just tired …. i coulda just been playing my visual novel in peace

guys i’m starting to think i have an anxiety problem

i am hilarious

bugcatcherjuli

i’ve been listening on loop all week at this point, i love this track and it is very important to me

i wanna be like xubi when i grow up

follow-up skeet options: 1. that’s exuberic on twitter and lllypad on another platform 2. (in some respects) 3. too bad it’s too late for that

i wish i could stay awake to prevent tomorrow from happening

o7 another one bites the dust

once again, i will refrain from commentary about hypocrisy that might imply an expectation to be better that i don't have

(especially when it comes to bell hooks lol)

i love this translation so much 😭 literally what does this even mean

this game is a lovely Nietzschean tale

Therapist: Qi Luo's teddy bear can't hurt you Qi Luo's teddy bear:

i just found out what SOMCON is, holy shit. fucking brilliant that School Days has integration for it, actually incredible

i opened up G-senjou no Maou for the first time just to see if it would run and i'm elated at the config options omg. idec what the story is like, this vn is brilliant

i'm pretty sure my favorite thing in the world is to feed my ass off on rein and type "mtd" after my team carries me

my team: sobbing and battered after begging me for 20 minutes to stop pinning on cooldown. a soft exhale dripping with fatigue escapes their lips. at least they can take solace in their avoid slot list; that should protect them from enduring such a harrowing experience once more. me: you're welcome.

incelcore cover of girl in red

still wearing it btw, who knows when i'll stop. comforting, sad.

it brings me pleasure to think about someone reading this after i'm gone, trying to figure out what was wrong. i just really enjoy online personal records of peoples' history, it's cozy