where’s the fun if i figure out the answer for you?

you don’t need to be brave

my foolhardy battles are not your own. virtues are contextually relative. my meekness is your bravery.

only once a month huh? my dealer must have given me the good shit

estrogen solved this for me by nuking my already low sex drive

tmi but i’ve finished more from other people than from myself since october, can’t remember the last time i watched porn

soap would be so proud

one of my most stubborn bsky opinions is that i must remain comfortable posting on main. i waver sometimes but i want to be as vulnerable and open as i can be, for anyone interested enough to care.

as i’ve accumulated more relationships, i’ve had to become more mindful of what i share. i’ve had to find ways of being transparent while respecting their desires for privacy. i’ve enjoyed developing this new type of discretionary judgement, although i don’t always get it right.

the bluntness of old diary-posting probably isn’t really possible any longer; proper nouns are replaced with pronouns, untagged self-harm pics are replaced with implication, verbose contextualization is replaced with reliance on pre-existing familiarization that fits within 3-skeet threads.

that’s not all bad, it’s fun in lots of ways to get accustomed to a new mode of communication and to explore its bounds. constraints are interesting. i think it’d be fun to go back to the old style for a week, though it’s unclear if i’m capable given the kind of values and habits i’ve internalized.

it’s also unclear if it’s something i need any longer. the function bsky posting has served in my life has fluctuated a lot since i first joined, and to some extent the current state of things is the appropriate adaption to my circumstances. no matter what, i don’t want to allow myself to hide tho.

how does it feel to be so deliberate and intentional, only to be met with clumsy thoughtlessness?

former 🙋‍♀️

🥳🥳🥳

i'll make you all radical realists yet

it’s always 2 dumb bitches telling each other 🙂‍↔️

(this one *is* a subskeet 🤍)

bless me father, for i am about to store stringified json

surely it's allowed to input-buffer ask for forgiveness

related deep philosophical quandary: "does it make you gay if you do a gay thing intentionally knowing you're doing a gay thing, but you're just doing it to be funny?.... like what if you literally let yourself get blown by a dude"

i have every expectation that many of you will, it's mostly a matter of exposure

new(est) willow is hella playpilled but rn im just irked that you're the only one who can watch me dance between contexts without getting disoriented

alternative metaphor: only one who can watch me crash my bike into a tree unflinchingly

its nice being inconsistent, i just wish more of you could consistently follow along

i know! it was good! i do genuinely mean that i already believed this, just that with my current social circle it doesnt make sense to speak aloud. ur basically the only person i could trust to get it lol

i knowwww and thats why i love him, just like to 99% of people i'd cringe and die if they said as much

unironically, tho it sounds memey/cope

never underestimate my ability to earnestly proclaim contradictory propositions in rapid succession

i might not be a doll but i sure am frail

smiling through gritted teeth until i blow my head off

🙃

you know it bestie

please do this

babe stop sucking up to babe

i need to implement a more effective union busting policy

🤦‍♀️ i was quoting babe babe

babe will you repost my art so i can be an awful little clout demon

this fits you better anyway

it’s so funny that i always say shit like this after laying out something that i retrospectively interpret as extremely profound

me to @kasey.cafe

(i’ve really come around actually, they’re based as fuck)

oh my god these are so fucking funny you’ll love them, okay gimme a second to compile

if i wasn’t a coward i’d leak the entirety of New Recording 38

i’m the best anarchist

17:30 - 22:00

i fucking love admiration. i fucking love hierarchy.

i wish i knew you wanted me

(TDKg2uB0jMo)