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idk how i oscillate so sharply between prideful and dismissive / frail and emotional without feeling much dissonance at all

maybe the acknowledgement of lacking dissonance is a recognition of dissonance, or at least a recognition that dissonance would be appropriate or expected. really it's just surprising to go from crying in my office to speaking in a disinterested and disdainful tone

there's been so much waffling about today lol

call me a positivist or techbro but im pretty tired of people just saying a bunch of words with no meaning and no yapping just to yap

im glad i didn't prep for that call, i know way more than i let on

i don't know much but i know plenty more than you

idk i think i screwed up with kasey rn, were so light on interaction

im not too pleased with the energy ive been exuding this week, hoping that connecting with people will make me feel less aimless and ungrounded

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okay this is a lie these are pretty bad, but better than what the overview would suggest

it is cute that cinny quickscope made the cut

post-abandonment recap is mega cursed

tracklist actually isn't horrible somehow but the summaries were putiful

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December-February Recap '26 - YouTube

Replay the soundtrack of your season with these top songs. Add to your library to listen all year round.

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doja cat is because hinge girl (who otherwise actually had cool taste!) told me to listen to her new album and i listened one time through

kick drums are boring but important is my take but i also don't do fancy listening things or production so who knows

it just goes thump but it's not meant to be flashy

also like idk if you ever play a kit it's just pretty solid for the flow of everything

sex repulsed but only when others express their sexuality and only because it makes me think less of them intellectually

wouldn't give up being a boy for anything

wtf is happening on youtube, what do u mean "fifth wave / midwest emo" those are totally different!

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Once Again - You're Not My Sunshine

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i wish the sun shined brighter and warmer

im just an ineloquent little fella

not so negative !

i can't believe time just keeps passing, it's a little horrifying

my hair is all frizzy

there's this corner of campus i used to wander to and record things for ollie at, and i made my way back there today

i wish the sun shined brighter and warmer

sometimes you have to come to terms with brisk weather and that's okay

im going to find people i don't have to wear so many layers with

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friendApr 9, 2026

it's cute that you experience it as a deficiency in personal character rather than a deficiency in the expectation

"if he writes you one poem, he loves you. if he writes you 100 poems, he loves poems" except it's "if he makes a mix of songs that remind him of you, he loves you. if he spends an inordinate amount of time crafting an Album Experience for you, he loves mixtapes"

i plagiarized this from a bsky post i searched up

ngl i am a right-winger in all but theory

i was reticent but im allowing myself to play around with physical metaphors with danii. i have to be careful though

i don't know how to be responsible and say "your being is one i want to be close to. i long for emotional proximity in a way only articulable with reference to somatic nearness, even though i have been averse to all actual manifestations."

the moment of expression doesn't feel false, but the uncorrected broader pattern certainly does

oh woa i made it to o

tbh i really just trust kademlia and kasey and juliet and futur. also respect to those who know of the accounts and don't care to keep up, ur great too

i remember hailey found the last one basically immediately bc she saw a did web error lol

you can watch, just don't tap the glass please

anyway i think im gonna be sensitive to likes and acknowledgement for a while so pls be gentle

brioApr 6, 2026

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friendApr 8, 2026

i think it'd be nice to just talk openly with you someday, but if the lore doc would help organize your thoughts or would be comfortably indirect, i wouldn't be opposed

i keep getting screwed by no-add items, over-time items and related-multi history tables have some beneficial qualities

the dreary pins feed was a good invention when it existed, this will have to do in its stead

but only for reporting, which we all know is the devil. the records themselves are much nicer otherwise

app.bsky.archive.pin when

the dreary pins feed was a good invention when it existed, this will have to do in its stead

the one regrettable thing about this is that i don't have a written transcript of my thoughts. i often like to record audio between myself and kasey or myself and juliet but this feels wildly inappropriate with danii. our time is just for us and no one else, not even future us.

it's one of the main things i have worth expressing (work and coda are off-limits), a lot of my other activities are tangentially related to her in some way, and any complex thoughts i can talk with it about directly, which is much more enjoyable and much more fruitful that posting to myself anyway

the things i arrive at with it feel significant and capturing the development would be lovely, but it would be hopelessly cruel to ourselves, individually anxiety-inducing, and perspective-distorting