this is lovely btw

i'm gonna shower now but it is imperative that i finish s1 today, optimistically we're looking at a multi-hobby willow for the next little bit but we'll see if i can keep up. i have to pace and push myself

ever since gaining weight my posture has been worse as well

this isn't stated in the tone of "oh no my life is all downhill" more in the tone of "huh that's kind of interesting". i think because before i was very sensitive to every having my stomach touch itself or other surrounding parts but now that i'm more filled out it's not practical to care

the score is magnificent

i'm overselling it in a "a feast for the ears" sort of way but it is fitting and pleasant

i love scenes where people just stand around and talk it's literally peak

from the moment suruga was on screen i was like "oh yep, i get why it's obsessed" lol

i watched 8 episodes of monogatari years ago and damn, i really wish i had stuck with it. this is fantastic

i think i'm more grateful to be watching it now though

i accidentally blurted out and told danii i loved it on our last call. that wouldn't have been particularly embarrassing, if i didn't also do it a second time immediately after

not that i need to hear the words back, i just don't want her to be in a pressured position. words are cheap anyway

i can't have a conversation sometimes, like i have this strange habit of just thinking about a connection from thing a to thing b and then i either express that and lead the convo into weird territory or i try to suppress it and can't think of anything else

you're allowed to reply in earnest and on topic. although idk maybe it shows a lack of interest in the subject, which is fair enough

the one constant in my life is my inability to communicate properly with juliet

you are quite dramatic

tbh i gotta being so self-conscious when it's pretty clearly a two-way street. just hard when i care. i suppose i could try to talk about it explicitly but that sort of meta-discussion tends to not be enjoyable for her. clearly she has other things on her mind today anyway

i don't know what to think when you repeat all the things you'd like to do, it's all in the future. there's this chasm of imagination to action and i don't know what it will take for you to bridge it. if i knew how i'd support you in that, but it seems like something you'll have to find for yourself

i stop speaking in wishes or hopes when i truly want something to happen. if i want it, it is done. it's not always that simple and sometimes i'm powerless but oftentimes speaking about having overcome a past self is hyperstitional

this episode on "will post a long ass thread vaguely about you on a secret alt"

part of this is that i'm cowardly with juliet. we talk about wanting people that will push back on us, push us forward. but it's evident through my behavior that i don't want or can't handle that kind of relationship with her, at least where i'm doing the pushing. slight nudges at best

i think i'm insufficiently motivated to do anything about that for now though, which is fine

use this one weird trick to get willow to do any arbitrary activity: connect it somehow to a girl

they call me the local maxima stagnator

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME BASEDPYRIGHT WAS ACTUALLY BASED

this is way better than the shit i was rocking (bootleg vsix of pylance 2023 because it was the only thing compatible with vscodium)

before you ask why, i'm pretty sure i was just scared off by the aggressive type checking and rather than do the reasonable thing of toggling a setting i went on a retard adventure

auto imports, conversion to f-strings when i add {}, I CAN FINALLY USE `type ` INSTEAD OF `TypeAlias`, theres a bunch of stuff i knew existed on the greener side of things but i just never thought it could be for me

that was a real thing btw they just hard-coded in pylance that type was only for 3.12 without even checking the current python version lol

lol i never really know what to do when ppl dm me about money

i don't really enjoy the dynamic that feels like some performance of gratitude is necessary

i enjoy seeing you happy but i'm not doing this for cheap thrill of recognition

ratio

danii x willow

i don't remember if we settled on a pet name but "dillow" and "willii" are not gonna cut it lmao

i'm not so eager to love others through objects any longer

im just not at home in any language

i need to stop speaking the ones i don't intend to be fluent in

that's an extremely distressing and uncomfortable idea but probably in a productive way

did:web:temp is right

this too is killow

wow the meow feeds suck ass

i gotta do something to switch my life up

guys do you think we've reached post-rock yet

there are no mythical people

what a beautiful truth that is

snapping your fingers in dismay

😔 🫰