listening to my autistic homies is extremely comforting and very relatable but then i get weird moments where i worry i’m just being dramatic and appropriating real struggle and it’s like bro you don’t even believe in the ontology of psychology much less the tiktokification of it, don’t sweat it

i actually think this is exactly why. i don’t feel safe being not a man when there are men around

"sexuality is immutable" mfs when i run sudo rebuild switch

it's really sad to think about honestly, the counterfactual of what i could be. and it's easy to think like "oh that's dumb just do the thing anyway" but what i'm mourning is not so much the activities themselves but the type of self that would be motivated to do said activities

fwiw i’m basically saying the opposite of “just let people be happy dude”